Things are going well. Classes suck. I never make it to my morning classes, but for some reason I'm feeling optimistic. I also have to make up an exam. Fuck. I need to study, but I realized a long, long, long time ago that I'm terrible at studying. I don't think I even know how.


There are alot of things that I don't know how to do. Most of them I want to learn. Studying I don't want to learn. I've also started my community service. It's lame, but I've realized it won't be painful at least.

I need less pain in my life.

I hate the feeling of disappointment that quietly layers everything in my life. It's the disappointment that I'm feeling from other people that gets me the most.


I've been talking about Christine all the time lately. I can tell that I'm starting to miss her more and more as a I realize that it's getting closer to a year since I've seen her. It's crazy that it's almost been that long.



But that's my life...I live a life where I wouldn't see my best friend for a year and there's nothing I can really do about it...immediately.

But even though this has sounded more negative than positive, things are okay right now. They're better than they have been.