Be Optimistic

I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying!

I'm thinking about life all the time now, and yea I reiterate this thought constantly in my posts.
I'm wondering what I should do next year. I want to come back because I can't begin to explain how fucking sick I am of moving from school to school and from person to person. I want to be able to see the same people again next year, but...I don't know what the friggin' feck I'm doing here.

I've been thinking about culinary school. Cindy thinks it could be a really good idea. That's why she's my top murr. Gah, Kaity is a dork. Anyway.

Culinary school. Cooking...food art...fullness. I'll just fill all my missing parts with food. YES.
But really, Culinary school.

I think it could be really great. I can't deal with this whole "general education" idea anymore. I've been getting general education now for 13 years of my life. I now want to go to a school where I can just do one thing and one thing only.

Art and acting...well I'd love that. I'd FUCKING love that. But now lately I've been struggling with what I'm actually going to make a career out of. Those two things have very rocky futures. I can't handle instability right now. I can't even handle the idea of it.

I like to cook. I like to bake. I want to travel...and well, I can see all of that being very possible with a culinary future.

I think I'll dwell on the idea some more. I'm actually a little excited about it. I feel some hope.