A few things should be said.

First and foremost, you were not a mistake to me. I just personally feel like at some point I could have made better decisions. I feel like there was probably someway this could have been much easier. Maybe not. But I don't resent you, I enjoyed all the time we spent together. I'll admit that I'm still offended that you felt if you stayed over I definately would expect for you to sleep with me. Not true. But anyway. I won't go into a huge explanation of how I would just crave your company blah blah.

Just know I'm not mad at you. I don't have hard feelings against you. I never resented you. I've only resented myself for feeling the way I do. But I can't do this anymore, as you expected since you were the first to say that night would be the last- the one thing I hate to hear, but knew you'd make it happen at some point. I feel like if I make myself stop then it won't suck as much as when you do. At some point I stopped and thought about how I should protect myself. I'll miss you alot. I'll be okay.

I just had some unresolved feelings. I know I apologized for what you overheard when I was on the phone, and I'm deeply sorry. I feel more guilt than anything when I know I've upset or offended you. You're an incredible person. Honest, cross my heart and hoping to die. I want you to be happy and what's good is that I know you will be. You'll go home and see your family and see her and, well the world will make much more sense that way.

I have alot more to say, but it's beginning to just become ramble. I would stop here, but that wouldn't be a strong ending. I love those, but sadly I can't think of one. This is all I have.