Letter to my Unborn Child

To my future child,

I've been dreaming of you lately. You're so beautiful. There aren't enough words to explain the feeling I get when I catch a glimpse of you in my dreams. I've told Christine of you. I already take pride in you; in your future, your potential and in my chance to be your mother, and watch you change and grow. I know at some points you will hate me; hate me for my mistakes and inability to always understand you. But it will never be my intention to make you something you're not.

I guess this is my way of promising you, and myself, that I will always treat you as an individual and as a fully able adult. All I ask is that you take care of yourself. If you promise me early that you will always think safely, and keep my worries, and love, in mind, then I won't have to worry as much.

I know someday you will be 19 and make many of the mistakes I have. Maybe you'll lose your virginity young, fall in love with the wrong person, drink illegally, drive illegally, lie, and so one, but I also feel that if I share my mistakes with you, you'll know better and know that I never think of myself to be better than you. I've had problems, you probably will too, but remember that you're always growing and learning, and despite your mistakes I will never think of you as less than perfect.

You will get some bad grades, you will cuss, you will yell at me and rebel, you'll get a parking ticket or a speeding ticket, but none of this matters. I love you. I already do. My job is to make sure you are aware of how amazing you are and how far you can go in life. I will never expect everything of you, I just expect that you will want everything of yourself.

Let me know what I do wrong. I will make mistakes. There is never a time when we stop making mistakes. We are human as long as we live...and after. I'll be young at heart forever. You will remind me of that. I hope that you not only see me as your mother, guardian, protector, but also as a friend. You are my child and the person who will take everything I have, live it, and pass it to your children. I want to know everything about your life. I will not judge, but I'll give advice. I want you happy.

I see you smiling in my dreams. My life is all I have to give you. If I could, I'd give you more. I will always try.

-Your Mother